No One Knows But You

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim.
Dear Allah,
I really don't have idea why all these happened to me.
Am i this strong to face with this kind of tests?
Or did i have a lot of sins and this is how U want to make things clean?

I try to take it positively.
But sometimes syaitan win.
I feel hesitate with You.

Allah,
Please forgive me.
I am seeking Your Forgiveness and asking for Your blessings.
Please forgive me Allah.

I want to go back to my village which is Jannah with a beautiful heart.
Amin.

I know this is the best even i don't really know what will happen tomorrow.